Faithfulness

I've been thinking about the word "faithful" a lot lately. Faithful... steady in allegiance or affection. Loyal. Constant. True to one's word. Strict or thorough in the performance of duty. Reliable. Trusted (thank you, dictionary.com).

I've been thinking about the faithfulness of the Lord, and I've been thinking about the call we have as believers to be faithful.

This time of year has made me pretty nostalgic. Sappy graduation photos pop up all over social media and I can't help but think about how much has changed in the few short years since I was at that point. I think in the Christian life, there is a good kind of looking back... The kind where you look back and see how faithful the Lord has been. And a lot of events over the last month or two have stirred up that kind of looking back. I look back at journal entries from a few years ago, I remember the things I so badly wanted, the plans I made for myself with certainty that they would happen. I look back and am filled with thankfulness - that the Lord knows me better than I know myself, that He knows my needs, that He withholds no good thing from His children.

I hold so tightly to my own plans sometimes. I think I know what is best for me, what will grow me, what will make me happy. I love to look back and see how the Lord guided me through many difficult decisions. At times the Lord withheld from me what I so badly wanted, and looking back I see just the tiniest glimpse of how good He was in doing so. I don't have a lot of life to look back on quite yet, but I am thankful for these few years as a believer that the Lord has so clearly demonstrated His faithfulness.

"God has been faithful, He will be again. His loving compassion, it knows no end." - Sara Groves

"Your steadfast love, O Lord, extends to the heavens, your faithfulness to the clouds." - Psalm 36:5

And while we're on the subject, I'm reminded also about our call to faithfulness as believers. As we remember how faithful the Lord has been, it should motivate us all the more to be faithful each and every day. To be faithful in the little moments that require steadfastness, grace, and faith. I'm seeing how important it is to dwell on what is true. It doesn't really matter what is going on around me, if I am skipping out on my time in the Word and prayer, I won't respond well. I won't dwell on what is true. I'm encouraged in realizing that we aren't instantly zapped into perfect children of God at our moment of salvation. If He has started a good work in our hearts, He will carry it to completion. But probably not right this moment, or the next, or the one after that. That work will not be complete until we leave this world.
When I look at the lives of older people I admire, I wonder how they get to where they are, and I have been reminded lately of one thing... It's about being faithful. We grow in the nitty gritty of daily life. He disciplines us because He loves us. He allows life to happen because He wants us to be more like Christ. This has drastically changed my way of thinking. We should rejoice in the trials because we know what is true. We must keep on being faithful with what He has set before us, and He will give us grace to do so. Today, tomorrow, next week, next year, and for the rest of our lives on this earth. Remember His faithfulness, ladies, and let the truths in His word motivate you all the more to be faithful with what is set before you.

Lessons from the Ant

     I know I’ve said this before, but when it comes my turn comes around to write on this blog, I try to stop and reflect on the things the Lord is specifically teaching me in the surrounding days and weeks. I think that’s probably the pattern of most (if not all) of the contributors.  When it’s my turn I usually wait until the last minute to write it. I realize it’s coming, I’m thankful for an opportunity to share, but I just keep putting it off. Oh I need to throw that load of laundry in. I meant to order those pictures. I’m hungry. Oops! I ran out of time. Gotta go meet so-and-so. And the excuses go on. At the eleventh hour (or past it) I end up making myself sit down and I try to collect all my thoughts together. Okay, Anna Leigh. Pick one thing God is teaching you. What is it? Surely there’s something. Sometimes that thing is obvious. Sometimes I’ve not been asking the Lord to open the eyes of my heart to see what He wants me to see; sometimes I’ve not been asking Him to search my heart, to see if there is any “wicked way in me”. Because of this sometimes I sit to type, and I’m wracking my brain for words.

     I’ve been in a similar situation for the past few days. I’d get an idea of what to write about, and then I’d forget. What was that idea I had? In all of this I’ve also been studying for an upcoming exam; and guess what? I’ve been putting off studying. I allowed myself to get distracted by things. Good things, not bad things, but not things that made the best use of the time. In all of this, I was graciously reminded of a struggle I have. A struggle that has been with me for pretty much as long as I can remember. I especially noticed it in high school when the papers and the homework and the projects seemed more demanding of my time and my brain.  I’d put it off. I’d study, but I wouldn’t study hard or smart until the very last minute. You know, when your test is the next day and you’re cramming all you can into your brain and after a while everything looks the same.

If you have picked up on it yet, I’ve struggled with laziness. It’s hard to admit, because, well…it’s such an unsightly, sloppy sin. It’s humiliating when it catches up to you. It’s a shot to my pride. I want to be viewed as smart, efficient, having everything in order.  Years after high school, I find myself in a similar boat. I can find so many excuses to not study for my test and do a million other things. This begins to trickle into other areas of my life. My devotion time. The time when I’m scrolling through Instagram instead of cleaning my house. Then I get frustrated when I want to do something fun with friends and I complain, “I have so much to do! Sorry, I can’t spend time with you.” Or I write a half thought through article because I wanted to search for the perfect summer swimsuit and, oops! An hour went by. It’s hard for me to write these words. I am ashamed at the fact that I struggle with this. I would love to rather be writing an article about how I’ve grown so much in this area and be able to share with you how I’m being more efficient. I’d love to tell you that I finished my homework and already swabbed the toilets, so now I’m free to serve my family and my church without the weight of guilt from the things I should have done.

     There have been a couple times when I’ve been on facebook or instagram or shopping on the internet when the verse, “So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin” would pop in my head, and you know what? At times I’d just keep on scrolling. By God’s grace I’m repenting of this. No, it’s not a sin in and of itself to spend leisure time on the internet, but when it is keeping you from what you know you need to do, when you’re wasting time, that’s when it’s wrong. The Proverbs are full of verses calling out to the sluggard to change his ways.  Proverbs 10:4 says, “Poor is he who works with a negligent hand, But the hand of the diligent makes rich.” Proverbs 6:6 adds, “Go to the ant, O sluggard, observe her ways and be wise”. Proverbs 18:9, “He also who is slack in his work is brother to him who destroys.” Then there’s Ephesians 5:15-16 that really speaks to my lazy habits;“Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise but as wise, making the best use of the time, because the days are evil.” We have been given a breath, a vapor, which is our life. We are called to make the best use of the time. Why? Because ultimately our time here is not ours. It’s a gift we’ve been given. It’s not that we are to fill every waking moment with tasks and things to do, but we must consider how we spend ALL of our time. Are we constantly seeking after our own pleasures, or are we seeking “first the Kingdom of God”? These are the questions my heart is considering. I do see God’s gracious hand in growing me in this struggle, but I still see it’s effects on my life and I long to make better use of the time he has given me. In this I have to be careful not to become Martha, filling my days with much to do and not making time to sit at the feet of the Savior. To hear his voice through his Word.

     At the end of the day the problem is not Netflix or Instagram or Facebook (or whatever it is that robs our time), the issue is found in our hearts, or desires, our passions. I’m committed to continue making steps to root out this sin, but it will only be by the power of the Holy Spirit in my life, by mediating on his truth as asking the Lord to open my eyes to the heart issues, not just the manifestations of a deeper issue. I want him to “take my moments and my days; let them flow in ceaseless praise.” I want my life to be flowing in this worship, and this demands all of me in every moment.

Pressing On!

Anna Leigh

My All in All

It is very easy to go through life looking to and waiting for the next milestone or stage that awaits us...graduation, career, relationship, marriage, children, etc. For myself, I have discovered that there are two major problems with this.  First, it robs me of present joy.  When I was single, people would often tell me how sorry they were that I hadn't found someone yet.  I knew what they meant.  These were people who were married and were enjoying the amazing gift of marriage, and therefore wished me the same happiness.  However, without meaning to, the idea being conveyed to me was often that I was missing out. . . that until I was married, my life was less satisfying or incomplete.  Of course, this is far from true.  God doesn't make cookie cutter people and He doesn't have cookie cutter plans for us either.  So, anytime we look at someone else and compare ourselves with them - what they have, where they are, what they have accomplished - we rob ourselves of the present joy that God has given.  His perfect plans for each of us are unique and wonderful.  And often those plans mean that the milestones we are looking to and waiting for with great expectation may be delayed (according to our timetables) or may not be His best for us at all.  This doesn't mean we are missing out.  I can be satisfied and complete in the Giver of all good things.  While our greatest joy does await us in eternity, we can still find present and full joy where God has placed us now.  

The second problem I find with being so fixed on the milestones of this life is that they become our expectation.  Every major stage or life marker that I have come to thus far have one thing in common: they have never lived up to my high expectations of what they would be like and how they would make me feel.  I remember being in high school thinking of how I could not wait for senior year, and although I had a great senior year of high school, it certainly did not live up to the hype I had created in my mind.  The same could be said for college, starting my career, moving out on my own, and even getting married.  Let me be clear, marriage is wonderful. I love my husband and know that I am immensely blessed to have him in my life.  But marriage is far more sanctifying and stretching than I had anticipated.  You see, in our expectations, we rarely if ever think or speculate on the way we will be tried or our real, true, fleshly self will be exposed.  We tend to only dwell on the lighter, happier, or what we may term as "fulfilling" things that await us in that phase.  This is why soon after attaining the object of our exception, we move on to the next thing that we feel awaits us and will fulfill us.  The Psalms are an ever present call to us to make only one thing, one Person our expectation.  

Psalm 62:5 "My soul, wait thou only upon God; for my expectation is from Him."

Psalm 39:2 "With expectation I have waited for the Lord, and he was attentive to me."

There are plenty of other admonitions throughout Scripture that point us to Christ being the only one to fulfill all our needs, all our longings, all our desires.  No other person or thing can do that.  

Wherever you are right now, let me encourage you to be grateful - joyfully grateful for where you are.    If you are in Christ, you lack nothing.  And if and when God chooses to bring that next milestone that you are looking forward to, find all your satisfaction and joy in Him, the Giver of all good things.  (James 1:17)

Clinging to the Promises of God

Recently I have been studying the book of Ruth. It is a beautiful story of God's providential care of His people and His willingness to accept Gentiles who seek Him. Throughout the book we see God's sovereignty, loving care, and faithfulness displayed. One of the things that I loved while studying the book was seeing God's character and remembering that God is the same today as He was in the days of Ruth...he never changes. 

There was a time in the book where Naomi was focussed on her past instead of the future God was unfolding for her. I know that can be true for me many times as well. It is easy to sometimes dwell on what has been instead of looking to where God is taking me and seeing trusting Him. Here are some verses that should have brought Naomi comfort as they were truths that she had been taught from childhood.

Exodus 15:2-3 "The Lord is my strength and my song, and he has become my salvation; this is my God , and I will praise him, my father's God, and I will exalt him. The Lord is a man of war; the Lord is his name." 

Exodus 15:11-13 "Who is like you, O Lord, among the gods? Who is like you, majestic in holiness, awesome in glorious deeds, doing wonders? You stretched out your right hand; the earth swallowed them. You have led in your steadfast love the people whom you have redeemed; you have guided them by your strength to your holy abode."

I'm so thankful that we have God's completed Word to help us when we face trials of various kinds in our lives. Here are some passages that can help us to think rightly about the trials we face.

Job 2:10 But he said to her, “You speak as one of the foolish women would speak. Shall we receive good from God, and shall we not receive evil?”In all this Job did not sin with his lips. 

Psa. 119:67 "Before I was afflicted I went astray, but now I keep your word."

Psa. 119:71 "It is good for me that I was afflicted, that I might learn your statutes."

Psa. 119:75 "I know, O LORD, that your rules are righteous, and that in faithfulness you have afflicted me. "

Psa. 138:6 "For though the LORD is high, he regards the lowly, but the haughty he knows from afar."

Psa. 138:7 "Though I walk in the midst of trouble, you preserve my life;
you stretch out your hand against the wrath of my enemies, and your right hand delivers me."

Psa. 138:8 "The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me; your steadfast love, O LORD, endures forever. Do not forsake the work of your hands."

Lam. 3:19-33 Remember my affliction and my wanderings, the wormwood and the gall! My soul continually remembers it and is bowed down within me. But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope: 
The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. “The LORD is my portion,” says my soul, “therefore I will hope in him.” The LORD is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him. It is good that one should wait quietly
for the salvation of the LORD. It is good for a man that he bear the yoke in his youth. Let him sit alone in silence when it is laid on him; let him put his mouth in the dust—there may yet be hope; let him give his cheek to the one who strikes, and let him be filled with insults. For the Lord will not
cast off forever, but, though he cause grief, he will have compassion according to the abundance of his steadfast love; for he does not afflict from his heart or grieve the children of men. 

Phil. 3:13 Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, 

Phil. 3:14 "I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus."

Phil. 4:8  Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. 

Phil. 4:9 What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me—practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you. 

We all have either just come out of a trial, are in one, or soon will be. This is why it is crucial for us to turn to God's Word for our answers and to cling to His promises! It brings my heart comfort and peace to know that we have a God who loves and cares for us and is working everything together for our good and His glory. I hope and pray that these verses would be a comfort to you as well. Remember that just like in the story of Ruth God is faithful even when we have been unfaithful and He alone is worthy of our trust and praise! Turn to Him because He cares for you!!

Broccoli, Chocolate, Discipline...and Me.

Twenty-something years ago a chubby-cheeked little Stephie and her sandy-haired big brother sit and recite to their mom,

"All discipline for the moment seems not to be joyful, but sorrowful; yet to those who have been trained by it, afterwards it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness." Heb. 12:11

Sitting around our oak dining room table with the backdrop of our California sunshine, my little girl self exists, unsuspecting and under appreciating that Mom feeds us words to nourish our souls. Unfortunately, those words taste like broccoli and not like chocolate.

Throughout my childhood I completely identify with the "sorrowful" part of that verse. The spankings that sprinkle my days in gravely interesting ways cause much of that sorrow. "Stephie, don't procrastinate, first time obedience!" "Calm down and control yourself," and "Don't instigate your brother!" echo often through our home. The discipline comes calmly and lovingly, but as my rear stings with the healthy smacks of my parent's paddle, I feel sorrow. Discipline, for the moment, seems not to be joyful, but terribly, terribly sorrowful. It looms as the broccoli of life.

Fast forward to my second year of marriage with Clay. Driving in the car with blinks of sunlight and shade floating on our windshield, we talk about our relationship and the practices we see help our marriage. Clay compliments me on something...one of those disciplines so diligently instilled years ago...and I have to say, "You need to thank my mom for that! She did such a great job of teaching me!" In that moment, with the swell of happiness from the praise of my husband, discipline seems very, very sweet indeed. The peaceful fruit of righteousness tastes better than the finest of chocolates. Who would have thought?

These peeks into times both distant and near encourage me again. I still often associate discipline with the wholesome and stodgy taste of broccoli. I still focus on the moment, procrastinating in what I know I ought to do, and sometimes, I still cherish the delight of instigating my brother - lovingly now, of course. But as I am gently reminded by those dearest to me, I still desperately need discipline. I need to practice the disciplines of godliness: cherishing the gospel, diligence in the Word, and living sacrificially, among others. As Barbara Hughes puts it in her book Disciplines of a Godly Woman, 

"The discipline of the gospel is coming to God on His terms."

 So often I fail, morningly, daily, and nightly, but I know what I want - I desire the peaceful fruit of righteousness. Fruit tastes sweet, and fruit coming from a life yielded to God's terms tastes tantalizing. Don't give up because the training seems hard. Don't quit because you have failed to discipline yourself for the sake of righteousness (I fail again and again). We may have the peaceful fruit of righteousness for dessert, our heavenly Father tells us, but first we must discipline ourselves and eat our broccoli. First comes sorrow, but then...what joy awaits!

Ways In Which We Grow

I apologize ladies for dropping the ball this week! Despite my lack of timeliness, I wanted to share with you a little of what I have been learning recently. 

As I say it again, 
I have a LONG way to go...and sometimes it seems like this road keeps getting longer. I realize more and more every day that sin is a whole lot of gross and ugly, and that my sole dependence is on the Lord. It is only by His grace that I am where I am and it is He who keeps me running to Him.  

I have been learning through the day-to-day that I must keep coming to the Lord in order to grow. Though don't like to admit it, I am a lot of the time impatient. I desire growth but become discouraged when I continue to stumble in certain areas of my life. I've realized though, through this ongoing process of "putting off sin, and putting on Christlikeness," that growing in Sanctification is a glorious thing! I have been studying it specifically and how it is manifesting in my own life and through my circumstances. Recently I ran across an article that hit me square in the face and so I wanted to share it with all of you!...

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control."

Galatians 5:22-23

"Just about every Christian has memorized the closing verses of Galatians and Paul’s description of the fruit of the Spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. This is the character of the man or woman who has been justified by grace through faith. Yet as we review the list, and especially as we review it slowly and prayerfully, we may find ourselves growing weary and discouraged by how little of that fruit we see. We are still angry at times, still struggling with self-control, still not nearly as gentle as Jesus Christ was and is. Paul’s metaphor of the “fruit” of the Spirit can help us, though. Here are five things that are true of fruit trees and, therefore, true of the fruit of the Spirit.

1. Growth is Gradual. We are an impatient people accustomed to instant gratification. But fruit grows slowly. A fruit tree grows gradually and over many years of careful and deliberate cultivation. If you purchase a sapling apple tree today, a sapling which is already more than a year old and well established, and if you plant it in the right climate zone and in fertile soil, and if there are other trees nearby that can help pollinate it, and if you care for it exactly as you should, it will probably be close to 5 years before you see the first apple dangling from the end of a branch and many years beyond that before it is at its top production, bearing the most and best fruit. Trees are tended carefully, pruned deliberately, and loved patiently until they bear the best fruit. Our growth in character is also far more gradual than we may like but the patience that is to mark our lives first marks God himself; he is patient with us as we grow toward maturity.

2. Growth is Inevitable. A healthy fruit tree that has been lovingly tended will bear fruit. It is inevitable. It is equally inevitable that the Christian indwelled by the Holy Spirit will and must bear fruit. No matter what the Christian’s life is like when he is first saved, that fruit will grow and display itself. The inevitability of fruit challenges every person who professes faith to examine his life to ask whether the Spirit’s fruit is present there. While we are saved by faith and not fruit, the fact remains that faith necessarily produces fruit. The growth is inevitable where there is life.

3. Growth is Internal. Fruit trees grow and produce fruit when they are deeply rooted in good soil and when the tree is internally strong. Fruit cannot grow on dead branches attached to a dead trunk and dead roots. It is not the fruit that makes the tree alive but the living tree that produces the fruit. In the same way the outworking of the fruit of the Spirit depends upon internal life. It is not giftedness—even what may be spiritual gifts—that proves that the Christian is alive, but fruit. The fruit of the Spirit is proof of a deep, internal health and grows out of that deep, internal health.

4. Growth is Symmetrical. A healthy fruit tree does not grow fruit on only one of its branches, but on all of them. There is a symmetry to a healthy, thriving fruit tree so that the whole tree bows low under the weight of all the fruit. The Christian’s growth is similar. Whenever we look at the fruit of the Spirit we need to acknowledge that the word fruit is singular, not plural. The fruit is the entire list, not the individual character traits. This tells us that this fruit also grows together with a kind of symmetry. These traits are so inevitably linked that we cannot have one without the others. It is impossible to truly love without being patient and kind. It is impossible to exhibit self-control toward another person without a God-given joy. The wise farmer tends his orchard with patience and love, expecting that when his trees have been cared for properly, they will indeed bear fruit. The Holy Spirit tends us with that same patience and love, knowing that we too will bear fruit that will attest to his presence and bring glory to the Father. 

5. Growth is Invisible. You can stand beside a fruit tree all day and all night and you will never actually see the fruit grow. No one has ever seen an apple visibly grow larger. Apples do grow, of course, but not in a way that can be measured in real-time. In the same way, the Christian’s growth is best measured after time and difficult circumstances have passed. It is after times of great sorrow or difficulty that you can say, “I used to respond to a situation like this with anger and lashing out; but yesterday I responded with joy and self-control.” The growth has been invisible, but real."

(Challies)

This encourages me to continue "...running with endurance the race set before me." (Hebrews 12:1) And in that process "...grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ." (1 Peter 3:18) Growth is gradual and it is hard sometimes, but don't be discouraged. Remember that God is patient with us in times of weakness. "..He is able to keep you from stumbling and present you blameless before the presence of His glory with great joy." (Jude 1:24) God is good and He is gracious, beyond what we deserve. Let that be what drives us to grow exceedingly more into the image of His Son, Jesus.

In Christ, 

Tiffany

The Little Things

I think sometimes we forget about God in the little things. We forget that we serve a God who cares for every detail of our daily lives... And we forget that He has sovereignly ordained these seemingly "little" details.

What do I mean here? Recently in Sunday School, someone mentioned that it is almost easier to trust God in the big things in life - those times when we truly feel we have nothing else to cling to but our hope in Christ. But when it comes to the little, daily, repetitive trials, it's almost harder. I've been thinking about this a lot recently. The Lord has been using these glimpses of my heart in daily life to lead me to greater dependence on Him.

My car has tire issues. Sometimes I turn my car on and the low tire pressure light is on. Again. I like to complain about this, because it's an inconvenience to my plans. I don't wake up in the morning planning to drive to AAA or a gas station and fill my tire up for the umpteenth time. I'm running out of quarters, for crying out loud. But wait... Rejoice in the Lord, always. Rejoice in salvation, rejoice in grace, and seriously, get it together, Abby. I don't think I bothered to be thankful that I even have a car when I turned it on and saw the light again. Yeah, you get the picture. My heart is a yucky place sometimes. I forget that He sovereignly ordained even these tire issues, and I believe that one of those reasons is to once again show me my complaining heart and my complete need to depend on Him in every moment.

Sometimes I find myself in tears thinking and praying about friends that are just so utterly lost. Friends living life apart from Christ, without the tiniest glimpse of hope to look to. I find myself burdened for their souls but at the same time fighting to love them in the day to day. Letting them know they're loved and that I'm not giving up on them, however that may tangibly look at the time. I find myself wondering if its worth it, you know, this sharing the gospel thing. They don't want to hear it, I tell myself. I'll humiliate myself. Wow, I fear man so quickly. Yet, He saved me, and I was just as dead in my sins. I was without hope, I was destined for wrath. It's only by His grace that I am not in the same shoes as these lost souls around me.

Titus 3:3-7

"For we ourselves were once foolish, disobedient, led astray, slaves to various passions and pleasures, passing our days in malice and envy, hated by others and hating one another. But when the goodness and loving kindness of God our Savior appeared, he saved us, not because of works done by us in righteousness, but according to his own mercy, by the washing of regeneration and renewal of the Holy Spirit, whom he poured out on us richly through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that being justified by his grace we might become heirs according to the hope of eternal life."

I look at the beginning of this passage and I see it around me and it grieves my heart. Then I look at the rest of this passage and I remember that I was just as lost. It's by His kindness and patience and grace that I am able to do any good thing.

I know this post is a little bit all over the place, but here's the point I'm getting to... Rejoice in the big trials, and rejoice in the little ones, too. Turn to Christ and depend on Him. Don't complain, instead be thankful. These seemingly little trials have been big wake up calls in my heart over the last few weeks. The Lord is so faithful to discipline those He loves, and what a comfort that is. The Lord is so patient with us. Ladies, let us be thankful for the little things. Let us not forget where the Lord has brought us from, and let us not forget the hope we have in belonging to Him.